Another week down...

Well what a week, it sure was fun, but chaotic and full at the same time. We said farewell to our beautiful friend who came to stay with us. We celebrated and remembered the ANZACS who dedicated their lives.... Spent the day with Nanny and Poppy, which was lovely despite an unbearable child who made my day living hell.... I completed a major management presentation that weighted 20% and think I did really well, and spring cleaned the house, as it's for sale and we had an open home today. So now Harry is in bed, DH is watching a movie And I am enjoying some time to myself. I would really like to do some baking, but the kitchen is so spotless and clean, I can bear to make it messy again,so I might pass on the baking today. It's only calories I don't need anyway. Looking forward to normality this coming week. I have a few major assignments due over the next couple of weeks so I need to knuckle down and get some work done. Still really hoping that DH lands a job with this company he has applied for. It's really hard not to get your hopes up, as it would be perfect...... Buti am going to try and not think about it for now, and just take what comes. I am always a believer that if you don't get something, then something better is out there for you. I was planning on blogging today about my challenges I have been having recently with Harry, but he has been so sweet today, and all the bother, and headaches he has caused us in the past few weeks all melts aWay when he giggles and plays, and says thank you and please and is just generally really sweet. He is a good child, and I know that. He is just outrageously strong willed.... And the continual resistance gets me down sometimes. I'm so grateful for such a great husband. We are a good team, and think we are both catching on to this parenting gig pretty quickly..... I'm off to hunt for something sweet!!!

Busy Busy

This week has been busy.  Where to start.
The last time I blogged was last Sunday, so since then we have been sending out C.Vs like mad, emailing companies about vacancies, and making plans to move back to New Zealand. 
On Wednesday I spent the day running around, doing food shopping and getting the house sorted as we had a guest arrive from South Africa.  A good friend of mine and E.  She is here until the 25th.
Thanks to mother nature (not) its been miserable and raining, so instead of being out and about and showing her the beautiful coast of NSW, we have been inside, eating outrageous amounts of junk food, watching movies, chatting and catching up on 4 years of lost time, and playing with Harry.
On Friday our guest announced that she wanted to get a tatoo, so after a lazy lunch of pancakes, stewed fruit and a mountain of icecream, we headed over to the tatoo parlour (one in which I checked out previously and has a really good reputation).
It was the first time I had stepped into a tattoo parlour, it had rock music playing, smelt like boys, and had 2 machines buzzing away on shirtless men.......
The guy who served us said that he could draw something up straight away, and so we agreed, and decided to do it then and there.   HOW EXCITING!....... This really made me want a tattoo, although I wont be getting one soon, as I want to have something that means something special to me... special enough to have it on my body, somewhere visable for the rest of my life, and I cant for the life of me think of that thing yet, so for now, I watch.
Our friend was so brave, and nervous!....... She didnt even wince with the pain.  We both were amazed at the tattoo artists work.  He was maticulous ( just how you would want them)... and walked out pretty happy!!......
Now the Mr depserately wants one, and has been surfing the net for a font he likes to get our sons name on his arm. 

The rest of the week has been lovely, lazy and fun.  Im enjoying her company so much.  I dont want her to leave!

She is meant to be flying out of Canberra airport on Wednesday, but our luck had it, that there is a major landslip on the only road going that way, and any other route would require driving dirt roads and would take approximately 3 hours extra, so we are heading to Sydney instead and she will fly out from there!

I went to uni today.  We had accounting and guess what?.... I GOT IT!!!! Woo hoo....

So Im on a happy high, and a sugar high (from the massive block of chocolate we polished off tonight) woops!!!!

Photo-less Sunday

Today went down to the NSW regional Emergency services Expo.  There were fire trucks, ambulance, police cars, marine rescue boat, and a westpac rescue helicopter.  
Well Harry was in his element..... He was "wee aww, wee aww" the whole time, and waving his hands in the air to imitated the flashing lights....
It was very cute. 

There were also Markets set up close by, so we walked through and looked at all the old ladies stalls, with 3rd hand crusty shoes, and little over priced trinkets.  I really do wonder how many people buy their stuff.   There was another old lady sitting in the blaring Sun with a table full of moisturisers (majority of them Avon) and other lotions and potions.  As a beauty therapist and knowing how easily a product can go off if not stored in the right conditions- I would be the last person to be buying there, but good on them....

After walking around in the sun, and letting Harry sit in every fire truck, we headed home. 

E and I spring cleaned the house and when Harry woke up, we took him down to the waterfront for an icecream.  It was his first time having his own icecream, and in usualy toddler fashion it went everywhere!!

I was so bummed that both times we went out today, I didnt take my camera.  It was such a good time, and I would have loved to get some snaps...... Oh well, next time.

Back to Uni tomorrow.  Back to the grind.

Looking forward to having our friend Charmaine visit.  She is coming from South Africa.

Uncertainty

There is so much uncertainty in our lives at the moment.  I find that as a result, every bit of motivation I usually have is gone. This means that I have done no homework for Uni, my washing is piling up, and my house is a mess.

I cant seem to find focus on things when my mind is constantly thinking about the What'ifs.... 

Elwic is waiting to hear back from the company he has sent his C.V to last week.  Being Easter weekend and school holidays, the boss is very likely to be on leave.... but I just wish he would call back already.....  If he doesnt offer Elwic a position, then I think we will settle here at least until the end of the year. 

My prayer is that he offers him a job, with a reasonable pay, and is willing to give us time to get the visa he needs before he moves back.

Im sick and tired of not being settled.  I have moved across the world constantly now since I was 19... and now Im done.  Im done moving house, Im done making new friends and adjusting to new lifestyles.   I want to be where I know everyone, where Im comfortable, where we have a good church that we enjoy...where I am around my family. 

I have so many mixed emotions about our situation.  I feel regret that we didnt just stay in NZ when he got offered his NZ residency (which I know would not have worked as he couldnt find a well paying job anywhere)
I feel sorry that I enjoy our lifestyle here, its family friendly, active, fun, but also really lonely at times as we dont have family close by.
I feel longing to be back where we were before we left to come here, where I could just pop round to Mum and Dads with Harry for a visit, I could go and have a couple of drinks with my sister, and we ALWAYS had a good time.

I know that not much I can do right now will change our situation. 
Its such a head over heart matter.  My head is saying... Stay where you are. Its secure, you are comfortable and doing well, but my heart is saying... Go home... family is more important... It may be a bit harder financially, but you will happier in the long run. 

I wish this could be easy

Anyone have some encouraging words?

A new acheivement

Today I weighed myself first thing when I woke up this morning, and I have FINALLY.. after many many years weighed less than 84kgs.  I now weigh 83.8kgs, and I am feeling really proud of myself. 

I have been working so hard with a personal trainer 3x weekly, and have been watching what I eat, and for a while I was on Weight Watchers..

In total since april last year I have lost 13kgs.....  Slow and steady wins the race right?

My goal is to get down to 70kgs, which would still put me in the overweight range for my BMI, but I know that I will not look overweight at 70kgs.
I also went and had my hair coloured today..  Its lovely to have it re-done, looking fresh and clean. Now I just need a facial, a massage, and a pedicure...

Yeah... Im dreaming

A blog change

I have spent the best part of today, playing around with my blog, and trying to customise it so that it doesnt look so boring.

No one ever told me I needed to be a graphic designer to do it.

My title still does not fit into my banner, and im not too happy with how little of my template shows on each side of my blog (the template is so pretty)

So if anyone is able to help me, it would be much appreciated

Photo Update

You blink, and your beautiful sweet little child who who lay and coo at you, is now a boistrous, busy, loud, funny and cheaky little toddler, who thinks you know nothing and they know everything....... and of course there is only 1 word in the english vocab worth using as far as they are concerned  and that is  "NO"!!!!

Sitting with Pop.... His fav person ever

Driving the Steve Irwin Truck

This week I got new Crayola pens, but Im just not sure where I am meant to be drawing... On my face, arms and body seems like much more fun. (thank goodness they are washable)

dont you just want to squeeze him?

Im so lucky to have such a good looking husband..... 


I really need to make an effort to take the camera out with me more often.....  I love photos!!!

Easter

I have over indulged, and now I feel terrible. 

Thats usually the way isnt it?

DH has the Friday and the Monday off, which meant a 4 day weekend, so on Friday we decided to go and visit Nan and Pop and stay the night. 

Harry loves Pop, so he really enjoyed his time there.

Had lunch with my Aunty, and overall it was a really nice weekend. 

We came back to the Bay today (Sunday) and Harry had a birthday party to go to...

An attempt was made to not let him have too much junk food, but it was in vain, as he is now well and truely tall enough to help himself to the table.

After lots of playing, eating, and relaxing, we are home.....

We have another Easter Egg hunt to go to tomorrow, so its been an action packed weekend all round!

Missing my family in NZ..... Cant wait to go back home!!

A curve ball

You know how we always say, "sometimes life throws you a curve ball" well it sure has. Unlike most curve balls that are a right pain in the ass, this one I am so so happy about. We are moving back to New Zealand!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am just over the moon. It means packing up our whole lives again, and doing yet another house move... But I really don't mind this time. I'm gong home, and going to be around my sister and the rest of my family. Harry is going to be so happy to hang with his nanna and pop, and no doubt they will be equally as happy. We are currently looking for the best job so that it is a smart move financially I will cross credit my uni papers over to a NZ university so that I can continue them there. So there is certainly a lot on my plate over the next few months.... CAN'T WAIT!!!!